Prayer as Medical Treatment

Her head had been in near constant pain for over 3 weeks. She had endured migraines for years but they had been rare and relatively brief. The pain was not making it difficult to sleep and function, work was out of the question.

This was her 4th visit in the office in a 2 week period. I had prescribed pain medications (which made her vomit), medicines to abort migraines (which had minimal benefit that did not endure) and had even stayed late one day to administer a steroid shot (which was a long shot at best). When I walked in the room the tears in her eyes and the strain on her face told the story. She was emotionally done, the end of the rope had been reached. She wanted help.

Unfortunately I did not have much to offer. All of the options for immediate relief had been exhausted. The next step would be to start daily medications to prevent headache, but these medications can take several weeks to be effective. I ordered a CT scan of her brain, which although medically needless was emotionally necessary to calm her fears and wrote the prescription for the daily medications.

Out of options, as I was bringing the visit to a close I asked, “Are you religious at all? Do you practice any faith?”

“Not really,” she said, “I went to Catholic school though. Why do you ask?”

“Nothing else has worked, so I was going to offer to say a prayer for you,” I replied.

“I’m not religious,” she said, “but I would welcome you saying a prayer right now. I will take whatever help I can get.”

I walked across the room and put one arm around her shoulders and said a simple prayer, “Dear God, Amber is hurting right now. She is frustrated and exhausted. Give her hope, give her peace, and giver her relief from pain. Amen.”

I had been taught In medical school I had been taught to never inject faith into an office visit and to never allow my faith to intrude into my care. Her acceptance of the hug and the prayer proved my former teachers wrong. Faith, expressed as love and concern for a person in need, always has a place.

Bart

 

Annoying Patients, Frustrated Doctor

Some people are difficult. They don’t mean to be. They are not intentionally rude, they do not try to be annoying or combative or abrasive, it is just the way they are. Sometimes it is lack of knowledge, sometimes they are just socially awkward. When they come to the office communication is challenging to the point where everyone in the office heaves a collective sigh when their name appears on the schedule.

Visits with these patients are often a struggle for me. I do not delight in rambling questions or in patients who feel the need to give a lengthy explanation of their self-diagnoses made with the assistance of the internet. Debunking their confidently held but ridiculously inaccurate medical opinions tries my patient and consumes an inordinate amount of time. I find my self emotional and cognitively drained by the interactions. It is difficult to remain focused on the medicine instead of the annoyance.

Over the last few years I have worked on a solution to the problem. When the ramblings become unbearable, when I feel the urge to run from the room, I take a breath, mentally pause and do something I never used to do. I pray for the patient.

Silently in my mind I ask God to help me see the patient as He sees them. I ask Him to help me listen, to be patient and to be kind. I ask Him to help me love the patient and meet their needs. I remind myself that I have my own problems and annoying idiosyncrasies and ask God to help me be patient and gracious with theirs.

It works.

The patients are still difficult and the visits still challenging, but I change. I become less concerned with the length of the visit and more concerned with identifying the real needs of the patient, the unspoken needs of which they may not even be aware.

As I have done this I have learned an important lesson. I have no power or ability to change others. I do have the ability to change myself, and that can make a difference.

- Bart

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Family Medicine is Dying, can it be saved?

I hated my job. After nine years of school and three years of advanced specialty training I found myself waking each morning with a sense of dread that only increased as I drove to the office. My job as a Family Physician was nothing like what I had imagined. I had dreamed of making an impact in the lives of patients, counseling and serving others in times of illness and crisis. The clinic to which I was assigned had a different agenda. Relationships did not matter. What mattered was that patients had a doctor to see for their routine health care needs. Who the doctor was did not matter to the patients and who the patient was did not matter to the doctors. My colleagues were more concerned with their days off and going home on time than they were with the needs of the individuals under their care. The physicians in the medical group were all employees and they acted accordingly.

One of my greatest frustrations was my inability to take care of my patients when they were sick. Primary care doctors were not given room in their schedules for same day visits. Every sick patient was sent to an urgent care clinic. Appointments were booked only for routine care and follow up. These routine appointments were hard to get as most doctors were booked several weeks out.

I did not feel at home in such a world. I told others my feeling that if I was not available to patients in their time of need that I wasn’t their personal doctor, I was just a doctor. This was not what I thought being a Family Doctor was about. I took it upon myself to identify spots in my schedule where my sick patients could be squeezed in and I worked extra days to decrease my appointment backlog. My colleagues all took a day out of clinic after each night on call; I decided to forego those days off and work a full clinic day.

In some ways my efforts paid off. Within a few months I had openings in my schedule and patients could schedule a visit within two days. I was the only doctor who saw his sick patients in the office and was seeing 50% more patient visits that any other doctor. I was developing relationships with my patients. Patients loved it but my colleagues didn’t. I found myself ostracized and criticized and I began to look for a job in private practice.

It was my belief that a career in medicine was not meant to be an 8 to 5 job. Patient needs didn’t (and don’t) fit neatly into a schedule. I entered medicine to serve patients and knew that service would at times require putting the needs of others ahead of my own. I started to look for another job, hoping to find a place where my attitudes were valued. When I interviewed for positions in private medical groups I found that my beliefs were welcomed. I was told, “You belong in private practice.”

They were right. Working in private practice has been an incredible experience. The occasional long days, evening phone calls and weekend emergencies pale in comparison to the blessing of helping people in their time of need. The ability to adapt my schedule to the needs of patients, to squeeze people in or add them to the end of a day, has led to truly meaningful relationships. Because I own my practice I have had the opportunity to directly reap the rewards of my labors and also to charge nothing for patients enduring tough times. In my mind this is what being a family doctor is all about.

My mind is apparently out of date. While service may once have been the mark of the Family Physician, those days are disappearing. The new generation of Family Doctors is less interested in personal sacrifice. The goal is a consistent schedule that ends each day at 5 o’clock, a guaranteed salary and no after hours calls.

This change in physician attitudes was brought home recently in a conversation I had with the director of a Family Practice residency program. She bluntly told me that none of the doctors she is training has any interest in a job like mine. Current doctors are most interested in “work-life balance.” They want to help others, as long as they can do it between the hours of 9-5 Monday through Friday. After 5 PM, patients cease to be the responsibility of their primary care doctor and become the responsibility of the health care system, the hospital or medical group. They do not want to be bothered. The fact that patients in crisis will be under the care of complete strangers is perfectly acceptable to the vast majority of doctors and patients.

Therein lies the problem. We live in a world where service and sacrifice are no longer commonly held values. While the increasing complexity of medicine makes it difficult for Family Doctors to take good care of hospitalized patients (when your office is 20 minutes from the hospital you can't respond immediately), the only obstacle to going the extra mile in the office is personal preference. The new generation of physicians seems to prefer not being bothered. In the hierarchy of goals doing one’s best has been replaced by doing enough. For those who work for insurance companies, medical groups and hospitals, enough may be an acceptable goal. Those of us who work for our patients understand that only our best is enough.

If things are going to improve patients will need to become more engaged. One of the main reasons physicians are able to be less available and responsive is that patients accept it. Patients are people and people are creatures of habit, so many patients choose to accept poor service instead of dealing with the perceived hassle of changing physicians. If patient engagement increased, if patients used review sites such as Yelp! to praise excellence and critique poor service, if patients started to vote with their feet and moved to offices with better service, the rules of basic economics would force physicians and medical groups to improve. 

I am beginning to see this on a small scale in my office. Many patients have shown their appreciation on Yelp!, with prospective patients choosing my office as a result. (Hopefully this will continue, if you are a patient reading this, you can make this happen!).

Regardless of what patients accept, what insurance companies pay for or what others do, I am committed to doing my best to serve the patients God has entrusted to my care. To me, a changed life and a "Thank you, Doctor Barrett" are still the best reimbursement there is.

Finally, it seems appropriate to acknowledge that declining service and commitment are not limited to the medical profession. Personal service and caring are declining all around us. We can all complain about it but words are not enough, we need to do something about it. I encourage everyone to repeat the simple prayer I pray each day before as I drive to the office, "God, may I be your hands to today to touch the life of someone in need." And then look for opportunities to see the prayer answered.

- Bart

Thanks for reading and for sharing. Patients, Thanks in advance for the reviews you are about to leave on Yelp! and HealthGrades. :-)  I can be followed on twitter @bartbarrettmd, and can be contacted by clicking the contact button on the page for those who have questions or who are looking for someone to speak to their church or community group. Comments are welcomed.

When the Doctor Makes a Difference

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I didn’t want to go in to the hospital. It was my internship year and I was tired from being on call every fourth night. It was my night off and I wanted to be home with my wife and son. 100 hour work weeks are hard on a marriage. I wasn’t in the mood for more work so I was not happy when my pager went off and I saw the number of the labor and delivery unit in the display. I called back and was told that one of my clinic patients was in labor. The resident on call was calling me to see if I wanted to come in for the delivery.

I was not obligated to respond. No one expected residents to come in on our nights off and the policy was that doing off-night deliveries was entirely optional. There was a resident physician on call in the hospital whose job it was to manage the obstetrical unit so my presence was not needed. I had every right to decline the request but in spite of my exhaustion I knew staying home it wasn’t an option. I had made myself and my patients a promise that I would attend every delivery I possibly could so I sighed the deep sigh if the sleep deprived and told my wife I was going back to the hospital. I scrounged around for a set of scrubs and headed out the door.

I sleep walked to my car, drove to the hospital and took the elevator to the 5th floor obstetrical unit. I made a right turn when the doors opened and headed down the hall towards her delivery suite. As I walked I could see that the door was open to her room with a current drawn for privacy. Curtains are a poor noise barrier and I could hear her cries of pain as I approached. Epidurals had not yet become routine and she was going through the last stages of labor medicated only with narcotics. It was clear that the narcotics were completely inadequate. I knew her well enough to know pain was not her only challenge, I detected fear and anxiety in her voice.

As I pulled the curtain back to enter I saw the on call doctor standing near her bedside. From a medical standpoint her presence rendered mine completely unnecessary. A doctor was needed for the delivery and a doctor with the skills and knowledge to care for the patient was present. I briefly wondered why I had felt the need to come and whether it mattered.

The patient’s response made my wonder disappear. She looked up at me as I entered and a look of relief come over her face. “Thank God you are here!” she said. She calmed instantly and I realized that what mattered to her in her time of need was not that some doctor was present, what mattered was that her doctor was present, the doctor she trusted.

I have never forgotten that moment. In those few seconds I realized a new career goal. It was no longer enough for me to be a good clinician, to simply get the treatment right.  I decided that I wanted more. I wanted to make a difference in people’s lives, not solely because of my medical knowledge and expertise but because of who I was as a person and the relationships I built. I wanted to have an impact on patients not solely for the care I provided, I wanted to make a difference because I was a caring provider.

The goal of making a difference has proven to be a challenging one. My own fears, insecurities, and stress can make it easy to overlook a patient’s emotional needs. The mental focus required to make a challenging diagnosis can at times cause me to lose sight of the big picture. It is easy at times to be “just another doctor.” My patients deserve more, and because of that pregnant patient 25 years ago, my patients get more.

-Bart

PS: After writing this post I decided to see if I could find the patient on Facebook. I did, and I sent her a message. The baby boy I delivered that night is now a man of 25. In spite of the years the patient remembers the night well and how grateful she was when I arrived. She wrote, "The anxiety wondering if someone whom I did not build a relationship with, someone who was well qualified but unknown to me was to deliver my child scared and worried me. I was truly concerned that you would not get there and appreciated it more than you might have known. The fact that neonatology was called due to meconium and a concern of NICU, I was a small disaster of nerves and prayers. Seeing you walk in calmed me and reassured me that all would be right with the world that early morning.  God placed you in my life for just that reason. Again thank you for being who you are and what you chose to do."

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A Dying Patient, Deceitful Doctors

He was dying. There was no cure for his pancreatic cancer, no way to halt the inevitable, so he lay in his hospital bed and waited, day after day after day. Every three days or so he received a blood transfusion. His initial surgery for the cancer, performed two years earlier, included the removal of a section of his small intestine. This was followed by radiation treatments that damaged the area where the intestines were sewn back together, causing a large, bleeding ulcer.

Under normal circumstances an ulcer like his would be treated with surgery. Terminal pancreatic cancer is not a normal circumstance so the decision was made to treat him with periodic transfusions, keeping him alive until the cancer killed him. In addition to bleeding the ulcer also prevented him from eating a normal diet. He was severely malnourished and his strength had faded away. His weakened condition made it difficult for him to walk and his need for repeated blood transfusions rendered him too sick to be discharged from the hospital. He was resigned to spending his remaining days in a hospital room, occasionally moving from his bed to a chair. It wasn’t much of a life but he didn’t have long to live anyway.

He was in a VA hospital, transferred there after he reached the lifetime maximum on his private insurance plan. He went from the personal care of a private hospital to the impersonal care of the Veterans Administration. At the VA inpatients did not have a personal physician. They were cared for by a team of doctors in training. The team consisted of a third year Internal Medicine resident, two Internal Medicine interns and two medical students, all supervised by an attending physician. On the first of every month the team changed and the patient was introduced to a new group of doctors, all of whom were new to him, none of whom had ever read his chart. As he was a chronic patient his chart was several inches thick and contained over a year’s worth of his medical information. It was so thick that no one bothered to read it.

I took over his care in January 1989, my final year of medical school. After hearing his story form the other doctors on the team I expected him to be the stereotypical grumpy vet. He was anything but. He was kind, appreciative and gracious. He had accepted his fate and come to terms with his condition. He expected little from the care team and was grateful for any conversation. I genuinely liked him.

One night when I was on call I decided to be the first person to read his entire medical record. It was a slow night so I poured myself a cup of coffee and started flipping pages. I reviewed the records of blood transfusions, lab results and the portion of physician notes that were legible. As I thumbed through the pages I came across a pathology report from the Mayo clinic.  As I reviewed the report my jaw dropped and my heart skipped a beat.

He didn’t have cancer. The pathology report from the Mayo clinic was a second opinion on the specimen from his original cancer surgery. The expert review stated that the correct diagnosis was chronic pancreatitis, not pancreatic cancer. He did not have a terminal disease, he had not needed the surgery, nor the radiation. He had been completely misdiagnosed. Even more troubling was the date on the report. It was over 2 years old.

I sat back in my chair and wondered what to do. All of the treatment decisions and recommendations for the last two years had been based on a lie. He had been told he was incurable so he had never been offered curative treatment. He had wasted away from a bleeding ulcer because he was told he would soon be dead from cancer. He didn’t have cancer, which meant that if he regained his strength he could have surgery to treat the ulcer. If the ulcer could be treated, he would no longer need blood transfusions. If he no longer needed blood transfusions, he could go home.

I called my senior resident and showed him the report. “We have to tell him,” I said, “this changes everything!”

His response stunned me, “You can’t tell him,” he said firmly. He explained that the decision would be up to the attending physician as he was the one who would be held responsible and liable for the information and its consequences. The resident was concerned about malpractice liability, afraid that the patient might be angry when he learned of the misdiagnosis. He did not want anyone mad at him for informing the patient and he did not want me to inform the patient either.

I was not at all happy with his response. It seemed to me that the patient had a right to know the truth and that we had an obligation to tell it to him. In my mind there was nothing to discuss or debate. I shared these feelings with the attending physician at rounds the next morning. He was as unconvinced at my argument as the resident had been. He felt that the patient had potentially reached the point where he was not going to survive, with or without cancer, so there was nothing to be gained by telling the truth.

I refused to accept his answer. I knew they felt that it was not a medical student’s place to challenge the opinions of superiors but I felt responsible to the patient. I pushed for additional review from the hospital ethics committee. My persistence paid off. An ethics consult was requested.

Later that evening I found myself with 7 physicians crowded into a room that comfortably held 5 people. I was the least experienced person present but I was the one presenting the patient’s case to the ethics committee of the VA hospital. They listened attentively to all I had to say as I presented the patient’s case to them and as they listened to the concerns of my resident and attending. It did not take them long to reach their decision. The patient had a right to know everything about his care and diagnosis.

The next morning I told the patient his correct diagnosis. I told him that he did not have cancer and that if he regained his strength he might be a candidate for surgery to cure his ulcer. He was appreciative and gracious. I ordered a nutrition consult to see what we could do to improve his overall health.

It was too late. The patient died a few days later.

Although my efforts did not change the course of the patient’s treatment or the ultimate outcome my experience with him did have value. It changed me forever. I made myself a promise that what had happened to him would never happen to a patient under my care. I vowed to be thorough, to be complete and to be diligent. No chart would be too thick, no history too exhaustive, no patient too complicated to ignore or dismiss. I realized that there would be patients for whom quality care would require uncompensated hours of chart review and I promised myself that when those patients came to me for care I would invest those hours.

Almost 20 years have passed but I have not forgotten my promise. Two weeks ago a new patient came to see me for the first time. He brought with him a list diagnoses that included congested heart failure, diabetes, hypertension and chronic pain along with an extensive list of medications. In keeping with my promise, I scheduled him for an hour long appointment. During that appointment I logged into the hospital system and reviewed his lengthy history. Halfway through my review I came across an echocardiogram report. The report described a perfectly functioning heart. The diagnosis of heart failure, one that he had carried with him for 8 years, was incorrect. The diagnosis had been handed down from one doctor to the next, unquestioned, for all of that time. I did not hesitate to tell him what I had found.

I ordered additional testing and referrals so we could plan a new course of treatment. As I filled out the referral request and entered the medications into his chart I was again reminded of the patient from the VA, and I was grateful for the lessons he taught me. Good medicine takes time. Good doctors invest as much time as is needed.

-Bart

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